EXACTLY WHERE YOU OUGHT TO BE

I was having a conversation with a friend of mine on the issues of life in general and he narrated the story of a couple who lived in america. They wanted a change because things weren't going well for them and so they locked up and relocated to Australia. But after living in Australia for a few years or so things still didn't happen the way they expected so they decided to return back to America. On arriving back at their home,they had noticed that their property had been cornered off with barb wires and with the presence of heavy military officials on their property.  They proceeded to gain entrance into their property but the officer at the gate informed them that the property no longer belongs to them. The officer then informed the couple that in their absence they found a huge amount of gold buried beneath the property and so the property now belongs to the government.

Often we are tempted to leave where we are to move on because we no longer feel comfortable however what we fail to understand that whilst we find ourselves in such situations,  Gods wants us to embrace the season and do our best with it. Despite the fact that we have been thrown into the deep end and a quick change is not feasible still we must practice the fruits of been patient as we hold on to hope and understanding that God is still at work.

There are times when i feel God is pushing me, driving me forward and yet holding me back perhaps because I am not paying attention to something he has been trying to tell me in my waiting period.  Widowhood is a journey of so many unexpected experiences as one minute you are doing okay and the next minute you are in pursuit of happiness, or you are just simply trying to fit into that place you call home, comfort, peace, joy etc.  I have learnt that in order to move out and move into that place where your heart feels at peace there are a couple of issues one needs to deal with.  

Firstly you must understand that change can't happen over night, it's a process just like being in new birth.A new Christian goes through a process of : 1) wanting a change, 2) accepting Christ as Lord and saviour to initiate the change, 3) identify the behaviours you need to drop, 4) work, more work and yes more work at living your life the way Christ expects you to. 

Secondly you must appreciate who you are and see great potentials in you. The greatest challenge you face stares back at you when you look in your mirror everyday. I constantly find ways to better myself and although this can be challenging at the moment still I press on. There are so many things you can do to better yourself whilst you wait. You are a work in progress and the death of your hubby isn't the end even when it feels like that. Try some of these if you don't already practise it.

1) Read a book everyday
2) draw up an everyday to-do list
3) overcome your fear(it's not always as you see it)
4) learn something new(hobbie, craft, language)
5) have a plan in place( for you and your kids)
6) free yourself from your comfort zone(I believe God has already initiated this)
And finally be thankful everyday for even the smallest of things

Thirdly, you have been given the ability and authority to change the world.. Really you have nothing to loose and you will never know if you don't try. Speak to yourself everyday. 

Genesis 1:28

²⁸ And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth.

Prayer

Thank you lord for my purpose in life, although I am not where I should be or perhaps I wasn't designed for this still I say thank you. Lord I pray that you keep me focused as I remember that everything works out for the good of those who love God and for those who are called according to his purpose. Lord help to remain calm but not to be in a hurry to see changes so that I may do your will according to how you have designed them.

Thank you father
Amen.