TAKE IT BY FORCE

It started last week thursday when I began feeling so low in my spirit and it felt as though the home going of my husband literally just happened a few hours ago. I was discouraged, hurting and overwhelmed and it seemed all of my strength had been drained out of me.  I just could not understand it any longer and even when my kids kept on reassuring me that all will be well, it really didn't feel like that to me. "When Lord, when I asked ?"  I was loosing hope, I was getting angry at my husband for leaving without prior warning; I was lost and I just didn't get it. 

I was feeling really at my lowest and I needed God so desperately although i didnt want to, some how i managed to get myself into church on sunday. I guess God needed me to be at his house, its amazing how God reassures me constantly of his love in the simplest of ways any how i had missed out on the weekly text informing us that the three days "TAKE IT BY FORCE" conference was schedulled to start on sunday. I managed to stay right through the service to the very end and I was glad i did because i left feeling better although it was but for a short period of time because in reality, I was feeling worse off  although I still had hope.

 I  decided yet again to drag myself on the 2nd day of the conference despite my feeling low.By now I was literally so broken down that I cried so much in church like I did on the day I was informed of my husband's passing. Really I had exhausted my reserve and had no strength left in me. 
So I'm in church crying and praising God, and seeking his face when I experienced my turning point as the man of God read from Psalms 102 :13 which says:
'You will arise and have mercy on "Layo", for the time to favour her, yes the set time is come'. As the man of God carried on with prayers, he began to speak on some recent occurance that was close to his heart and as I listened on, it was as though God gave this man of God the power to see through my heart. I was amazed to hear him speak about women, cancer and the church. Aside from  the pain that i was feeling from missing hubby, this man of God touched up on issues dear to my heart and all I could hear was God saying, 'my dear daughter, I know your pain and I see your heart and the purpose I have for you will come forth'. Immediately, I regained strength and I began thanking God for speaking through this man of God. My inital pain disappeared as I focused on the words been preached, yet again God was confirming my thoughts on the importance of the church with the issue cancer.


i have found out that a preoccupied mind on positive issues leaves no room for hurt. i find that taking you mind of your worries and focusing on the needs of others brings healing.  You cannot take your worries to God and then collect them back by spending time with them, you have got to let go and let God. When you pray for others be rest assured God is working on your  issues not forgetting he already knows all there is to know about you and will answer before you even speak.

By the end of the "TAKE IT BY FORCE" conference I was so encouraged and at peace with myself knowing God has equiped me with even more strength. He wants me to draw a cross over my pain and keep moving, he has given you the will power to "TAKE IT BY FORCE". Go and take your joy, your peace, your happiness, your breakthrough whatever God has in store for you, its for the taking.


Prayer

Dear father, 

I thank you for great grace, and for your undilutted love and strength to carry on. Father I pray in our discouraging times may we open our eyes to see the little reminders you have set before us, the reminders that we can do all through you. May we also remember that you have given us the authority to take and posses that which is ours and through it bring glory to your name and may we forever be greatful.

Thank you Father.
Your daughters Behin-D-Veil